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I wouldn’t recommend killing your dreams.
Most kids are afraid of growing up and having their dreams die. That kind of death is the most common one – the slow suffocation under the weight of reality, or the gradual atrophy as you get distracted and stop feeding the poor things. There’s the other common cause of death – you try, and you fail.
My death was similar to this.
I failed.
And failed. And failed. And failed. And failed. I kept failing. Nothing was ever a success. I was worthless. My artwork was worthless. My stories were incomplete. My comics were pathetic.
But I couldn’t turn off the desire to create. Art was part of me. It was everything I wanted to say, all I wanted to show, the little splash of individuality and tiny little change in the rhythm and din of the world.
But I couldn’t show it. I couldn’t say it.
It was literally driving me mad.
I couldn’t keep living that way.
So I killed my dreams.
I re-discovered television. If I wanted to try to draw again, I wouldn’t let myself. If I wanted to write, I did not open Microsoft Word. I was still reading, but it sparked my imagination too much.
I drowned myself in television.
Eventually, I found the fire to create had been damped. I didn’t really want to create anything.
And god, I hated it. The inactivity was murdering me far more cruelly than wrestling with the Demon Art ever did.
I started doodling of pieces of scrap paper before I threw them away.
I drew a little bit, but I was still afraid.
I started reading books again, voraciously.
Then I joined Flash Fiction Month.
I wouldn’t recommend killing your dreams.
They’ll just haunt you.
Then you have to go through the trouble of resurrecting the damn things.
Most kids are afraid of growing up and having their dreams die. That kind of death is the most common one – the slow suffocation under the weight of reality, or the gradual atrophy as you get distracted and stop feeding the poor things. There’s the other common cause of death – you try, and you fail.
My death was similar to this.
I failed.
And failed. And failed. And failed. And failed. I kept failing. Nothing was ever a success. I was worthless. My artwork was worthless. My stories were incomplete. My comics were pathetic.
But I couldn’t turn off the desire to create. Art was part of me. It was everything I wanted to say, all I wanted to show, the little splash of individuality and tiny little change in the rhythm and din of the world.
But I couldn’t show it. I couldn’t say it.
It was literally driving me mad.
I couldn’t keep living that way.
So I killed my dreams.
I re-discovered television. If I wanted to try to draw again, I wouldn’t let myself. If I wanted to write, I did not open Microsoft Word. I was still reading, but it sparked my imagination too much.
I drowned myself in television.
Eventually, I found the fire to create had been damped. I didn’t really want to create anything.
And god, I hated it. The inactivity was murdering me far more cruelly than wrestling with the Demon Art ever did.
I started doodling of pieces of scrap paper before I threw them away.
I drew a little bit, but I was still afraid.
I started reading books again, voraciously.
Then I joined Flash Fiction Month.
I wouldn’t recommend killing your dreams.
They’ll just haunt you.
Then you have to go through the trouble of resurrecting the damn things.
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'S true.
I didn't really want to post this, but I was stuck on it. I might disembowel it and re-post something else entirely in the near future. I don't like talking about myself in public. Sure talk a lot, though, don't I?
If nothing else, take this as a cautionary tale against the intellectually and imaginatively sapping powers of television.
I only watch TV when I want my brains sucked out.
I didn't really want to post this, but I was stuck on it. I might disembowel it and re-post something else entirely in the near future. I don't like talking about myself in public. Sure talk a lot, though, don't I?
If nothing else, take this as a cautionary tale against the intellectually and imaginatively sapping powers of television.
I only watch TV when I want my brains sucked out.
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Well done. I'm glad you re-connected with your dreams and creativity. Turning off the TV was definetely a good first step.